Reading List for March 2015

 

  1. “Keep Your Love On”, by Danny Silk.  A book that talks about a mature love – a love that focuses on the standard defined by Jesus himself.
  2. “King of Torts”, by John Grisham. Back to reading Grisham.
  3.  “The Stand”, by Karl Martin. This is a book about the call to really live. To live out your Christian life – standing on the truth of who God is and who you are in him.
  4. “Keeping the Heart”, by John Flavel. John Flavel’s classic work on union and fellowship with God.

Kolkata, India – Day 1

God is love, God will save us when he comes and He will not ask for anything, He gives us undeserving grace and mercy and demands our all if we choose to follow Him.

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It is only because of your grace and mercy that I am here. Whatever it is that will happen this week is not because of who I am. I have nothing to offer. My past is a mess and still haunted by it sometimes. But I’m anchoring my life to you. Holding on to the fact that you love me.

So Father use me to make your name known. Make my life a living testimony of your love.

To My Mom On Her Birthday

IMG_1918_1024Dearest Mom,

You became a mom 34 years ago. Just at the peak of your adolescence but already trying to grasp everything in order to learn how to become a mother for the first time.

Growing up, I never really understood you. Especially those times when we just had enough money to sustain us for a day and you would willingly give or share it to anyone who would come in our house and asked for your help. It might be a small act of kindness on your part but to tell you the truth Mom, part of my character and values was formed seeing you do that. Because through that act you had shown us how to love unconditionally and I thank God for that. Grateful that He had placed us under your care and sustaining you with His grace to brought us up.

I know it’s a bit lonely back home because me and my siblings are now carving our own destiny. But fear not Mom, because I can assure you that we are all gonna be fine. We may stumble and fall along the way but trust God that He will always be there to protect us and guide us.

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On this birthday of yours, I just want to tell you Mom that God still has a lot of plan for you. You are an epitome of wisdom, grace and beauty. Use it to guide the young women that God is placing under your care. Make God be known to them.

May your love and joy overflow as you know Him each day. May your life be a reflection of His heart and May He forever clothe you with strength and dignity. Mom, continue to love and praise Him because He is alive more than ever and He love you so much.

I miss you and I love you.

Chie

Reading List For February 2015

Shrinking my book list to 3 as I’ll be out at the end of February to find my destiny.

  1. “Love & Misadventure”, by Lang Leav.  A poetry book about love to hearbreak to finding love again.
  2. “The Ocean at the End of the Lane”, by Neil Gaiman. His first adult novel in eight years.
  3.  “Culture of Honor”, by Danny Silk. This is a book about how to love, value and honor people in spite of their mistakes.

On Letting Go

“There is a particular kind of suffering to be experienced when you love something greater than yourself. A tender sacrifice. Like the pained silence felt in the lost song of a mermaid; or the bent and broken feet of a dancing ballerina. It is in every considered step I am taking in the opposite direction of you.”

– Lang Leav (Love & Misadventure)

Reading List for January 2015

For years now I had tried to maintain this habit of reading two books in a month. But this year, I’m planning to up the ante by setting a goal of four books in a month. So for this month, here’s the list that I plan to read.

  1. “Elements of Style”, by William Strunk Jr.  One of the definitive book on writing style guidelines. One of my goals this year is to polish my writing skill especially that I restarted this blog. So let’s see if there will be a difference in my writing after reading this book.
  2. “The Graveyard Book”, by Neil Gaiman. This book won the Carnegie Medal and Hugo Award Winner for best novel. This book is about a boy who was raised in the Graveyard and his journey to adulthood learning life’s lesson from the graveyard’s denizens.
  3.  “The Hole in our Holiness”, by Kevin DeYoung. This is a book about God’s power of love and grace that will help us to grow and to enjoy the process of transformation.
  4. “The Perks of Being a Wallflower”, by Stephen Chbosky. This book is about Charlie and his search of that feeling of being infinite.

 

 

 

No One Is Alone (A Birthday Post)

A year passed through the spaces between moments. A year where a lot of things in your life was shaken, where your spirit was crushed more than you could ever handle. A year where you found out your weakness, saw terrible things hidden inside your heart, where you saw the worst part of yourself.

It was a difficult moment, especially when people expect you to behave in a certain way, when they expect you to be without having any flaws. Then people leave you because they couldn’t handle your mess. Couldn’t accept the fact that you fall sometimes. Your life suddenly took a 180 degree turn and you feel that you’ve lost your way.

As all these things are happening, you could never deny the fact that God was there all along. His presence more visible and tangible than ever. How He ensured that I can survive this ordeal by preparing things before hand. How He reminds me everyday that “He will never leave me, nor forsake me”, that He will hold me close more than ever despite of my failures.

And as I celebrate my 34th birthday and this day comes to an end, let me express my gratitude to everyone who tirelessly listen as I pour out my heart, who never fails to shower me with love, understanding and affirmation.  Please know that I’ll be forever be grateful.

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Sometimes people leave you.
Halfway through the wood.

People make mistakes,
Holding to their own,
Thinking they’re alone.
Honor their mistakes, everybody makes mistakes
Fight for their mistakes, One another’s terrible mistakes
Witches can be right, Giants can be good.
You decide what’s right you decide what’s good
Just remember someone is on your side

Nothings quite so clear now.
Do things, fight things,
Feel you’ve lost your way?

Hard to see the light now.
Just don’t let it go
Things will come out right now.
We can make it so.
Someone is on your side
No one is alone.

– Into The Woods (Stephen Sondheim)

Like A Fool

Took a fine time to leave me hangin’ out to dry
We finally find this then you’re gone
Been chasin’ rainbows all along
And you have cursed me when there’s no one left to blame
And you have broken every promise that we made
And I have loved you just the same.

For Unto Us A Child Is Born

6 For unto us a Child is born,
Unto us a Son is given;
And the government will be upon His shoulder.
And His name will be called
Wonderful, Counselor, Mighty God,
Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.
7 Of the increase of His government and peace
There will be no end,
Upon the throne of David and over His kingdom,
To order it and establish it with judgment and justice
From that time forward, even forever.
The zeal of the Lord of hosts will perform this.

 

I couldn’t thank you enough for preparing me of what was to come. The current process was difficult but I know that if You haven’t plugged me to a church – to my home group, it will be much more harder to bear. You see, for months now I’ve been asking you to show me if You’re with me on this season of my life because it is so difficult to see if there will be a light at the end of the tunnel.

But last night You open my eyes to see how you are preparing me for this season. Oh father how can I thank you? that despite of my flaws, my mistakes and my sins, You only showed me Love, Acceptance and Forgiveness. I have nothing to offer you but a broken soul together with my sins and flaws. Trusting that You can do something about it by making all things new.

Thank you because the very reason you came here on earth 2,000 yrs ago is to save a broken mess like me. I am nothing without You.