“All that night,” O child of sorrow, Can you not your heartbreak stay? Know your God in darkest night works, as well as in the day.
That even with all the tragedy, disappointments, pain and rejection that is happening now, at the end there will be a joyous celebration as we all come before Him.
“And God will wipe away every tear from their eyes” – Rev 7:17
After all life is not about me.
You’ll get through this. It won’t be painless. It won’t be quick. But God will use this mess for good. In the meantime don’t be foolish or naive. But don’t despair either. With God’s help you will get through this. – Max Lucado
I ran away from You thinking that I can do it on my own.
The desire of serving my own need is greater than the desire of serving You.
I kept trying to get away from You, though I knew of Your love for me.
I feared of giving up everything else if I had You.
Tried to hide my sinfulness against a facade and I unknowingly put up a wall to hide it and pretend that everything was alright.
Everything seems to be fine and so I thought…
My souls starts to get perturbed.
It seems that You are still there following me peacefully and yet unhurriedly. Pursuing me with You love and Your grace.
But still part of me through sin and human love tried to hide a part of myself away from You.
I have nothing left that will allow me to exist without You in my life, and I have been driven to my knees.
God, must you break me down before you can use me for Your glory?
My heart is broken. What is to happen?
Now from this long pursuit of happiness comes God.
God says, “You keep running from Me. This is strange. Why do you run from Me?
I love you. You didn’t do anything to merit My love. Human love is different from My love.
For human love you need merit. I love you no matter what you do because I Am Love.
I have prepared a place for you with all of the desires of your heart.
I am what you have been seeking this whole time. I will never leave you, nor forsake you.
I will never reject you even if every body else rejects you.
“My heart is restless until it rests in You.”
Grace to forgive.
Grace to forget the pain and all the hurts.
Grace to show mercy and kindness.
Grace to love again unconditionally and unselfishly.
Father, I can’t do it on my own. This struggle was not easy.
Father, please consume every thing that is not right in my heart with Your fire.
I need Your love and Your grace to change my heart and renew my mind.